Bad Outing Day
2000-07-23 08:00:00
Smalam baru balik lab ngan epi .. letih .. tido terus ... tapi memula tak leh tido smalam tapi lena gaks . then bangun kol 9:40 .. bangun bangun je terus ingat mek .. sebab mimpi semalam mimpi kat depan komputer lab bawah kat depan pintu tu tgh duduk ngan erin . skalik mek datang .. gi tgk kat pintu .. then buat buat cam nak tendang dari blakang .. ehehhe comel .. then dia duduk lutut dia kena my peha .. hehehe bestnye mimpi .. then in the morning i triend to call her .. " we're sorry the number u have dialed is bz " emm . cam biasa la .. entah ngan sape ntah dia cakap .. ngan amir kot . .cakap apa ha ? waawawa kenapa ngan aku taknak cakap .. then later on .. i mandi semua dah siap kemas loker .. gi tgk call miss judy japp ..cerita la pasal my mom datang semua then miss judy kata give azaridah some time semua she's confused .. oklah ... i think i wont bug mek anymore la .. tapi takut dia lupa i terus .. dah la mek siap tanye nak balik ke tak sabtu nie ada practice ke tak kat muss judy . .waa i'm so sad ... then tried call her .. ringing tapi tak angkat .. biasala .... asal taknak angkat ha ? asal sampai camnie sekali ... at least kawan pun angkat la fon call ... i dunno why ... emm .. then tgk super man.. harinie dah master dah main dear lie .. ehehheh boleh la nanti main kat dia kalau la dia nak dengar ..emm ..now waiting for mom to come for outing .. menon kirim barang epi kirim barang semua ... alahai . asal mek tak jawab my fon call harinie ? am i that bad ? ... hm .. skang nie dah balik outing .. tadi outing mama basgi ceramah semua . mama said that mekja was the fault .. why did mekja go for another guy if she loves me ? she said that mekja is not faithfull .. but i dont believe that .. ibelieve mekja really loves me .. but i dunno why mekja changed .. really i dunno .. i want to blame amir .. if wasnt because of him .. mekja tak jadi camnie .. but mom said amir was not the fault .. its mekja .. but sometimes pikir pun its mekja fault. . why the hell did mekja didnt love me .. if i did anything wrong ke just tell me la .. ni tak . gi kat laki lain .. pelik ar .. mek. .. why are u like this ? u changed my life completely .. u change my preception semua .. kenapa ? why ? its just because of one guy ? amir ? what is it ? i need answer and i need honest answer mek ... but what to do .. i've tried everything ...
i hate amir for what he had done .. i wish amir never came to kys .. i really wished that ... but what to do .. things had happen already .. btw .. then outing semua beli barang semua dah okay dah ngan mama . skalik time nak beli barang .. memula memang rasa cam amik banyak .. tapi ingat mama tak kesah .. tgk tgk dia suruh bayar last minute .. mama dah la tak bagi apa apa pun .. sebulan skalik belanja RM90 untuk boy makan apa salahnye ? then mereajuk la dalam kerete .. i cried also. . kenapa jadi camnie .. semua tak betul .. dulu lain skarang lain .. apa nak buat nie ? ya allah .. cukup la dugaan mu .. saya dah terseksa nie .. ampunilah dosa ko .. ya allah .. entah la .. harinie was like ok lah ngan mama .. jap lagi rasa mintak maaf ngan mama la .. she gave me RM50 back also ...
then later .. tetiba i got a message from mekja .. " ooo .. dah beremail emailan ngan rye ek " " ada affair ke " i didnt answer .. teruk tol mekja nie .. bila ada benda nak tahu baru nak msg. . sebelum nie i msg buat cam tunggul je .. ieeee.. kenapa mekja jadi camnie ? dulu ngan amir .. ARGHH !!! tension nye ... mek mek .. why is this happening .. this is not you .. if its you kenapa ? why ? sebelum nie orang msg nak tanye hi pun tak reply .. orang call pun tak jawab ... skalik tetiba msg tanye pasal rye .. then lagi msessage cakap "what did u tell her ?" nampak sangat takut ... but then i called rye... then petang tue saje gi lab sebab risau pasal rye cakap mek ke tak... then masuk icq je .. eh rye ada .. nasib baik .. then story punya story kat rye ... .rye kata call .. then kata rahsia number la apa la .. hehhe pelik tol rye nie ..
And then ... ya allah ... cakap ngan rye dari kol 7:30 sampai lar kol 8:20 cakap nye cakpa .. i got to know so many things about mekja .. why AMIR !!!!!!!!! AMIR !!! kacau ke datang kys .... tau la kau hensem ada duit semua harta kaya semua ada otak semua tapi com on la ... jgn la mess with other ppl life's ... ARGHH !!!!! rye told me that even when i tgh couple ngan mek .. mek and amir was having an affair ... memang i tought there was something also but mekja told me that takdek .. even mek told me dia kutuk amir but why ? kenapa buat tak tau dah la .. kenapa nak bitau semua .. then lagi nak cakap cam amir lari .. even rye pun cakap kenapa nak bitau amir menggelabah semua cam apa ? mek mke .. if u really want amir why did u loved me ha ? then u loved me when kau rasa kau nak kat amir u just follow your feelings ... why are u playing with me .. i know u loved me .. but i know now u had affair ngan amir ...
rye pun cakap. .time kita couple kau cakap kat amir " i love u .. " then amir cakap " i love u 2" thats what rye told me .. rye sakit hati aku pun sakit hati .. i tak tau la mek .. kalau kau guna kecantikan kau just to make yourelf happy without thinking about the real world .. i dont know la .. but i dont think your that kind of woman .. i'm giving u the last chance la ni if u didn't realize i dunno lar. . forever in my life i will see u as someone very cruel ... dah la u didnt tell me the truth .. why ? why ? nak jaga hati ? why ? still want to keep me ? u know its hard for me to fall inlove coz i'm kinda unique person .. but u dont have to do that ... kau ingat aku senang senang ke nak fall inlove ? ha ? aku dulu tak pandang perempuan kau tau tak .. tapi when i saw u .. ir really fall on you .. and how u treated me semua .. i sacrifise my pride to you .. then what happend ....
now i dont know weather i should trust u still or not .. after what we had gone thru semua .. why are u doing this ? u think just about your self ke ? kau couple ngan aku kata tak curang semua .. kata amir ajak kau keluar semua kau elak semua... tapi ko kata kat aku " ingat aku ni perempuan curang ke ... aku bitau amir " but then .. in the other side. . memang ko dok layan dia .. memang ko ada that feelings for him .. because why ? because he's hensem .. kau fall kat dia time form 3 .. kan kan ? tapi couple ngan aku buat ap? HA !!!!! just tell me the truth la .. i dunno what to say la .. i cant believe u could do this ... orang cam kau nie very decent and baik hati as i know u very well.. if only AMIR TAKDE dalam dunia nie kan elok ... why mek why ?
i dunno la .. tonite i need to talk to rye again .. rye pun sakit tau .. aku pon sakit ... semua .. ieee .... aku tgk muka kau kan .. aku tak sampai hati nak marah .. walaupun sebenarnya i should be mad. . tapi aku tak ... i know kau dah tipu aku before .. but then i tought u tell me the truth after that .. but u still lie to me for the 2nd time and 2nd lapisan .. ya allahh .. aku harap suatu hari nanti tuhan tunjuk aku the truth la ... entah la mek .. kalau kau really loved me dulu .. kalau aku tak treat kau good ke .. u should understand why ... even kalau kau rasa tak best ke ko patut cakap kat aku .. kalau amir really nak kat kau . kenapa dia cakap .. "mekja nie paling susah aku nak tackle " dia main main je nak tackle pompuan cantik .. semua dia nak ... dia cam playing a game .. game on pompuan cantik je .. then lagi time aku couple ngan kau call kau siap cakap "Sayang buat apa tue .. " then "bye sayang i love u " tapi aku tau skang yang ko dulu pon syok dia cakap camtue .. ko layan dia cakap camtue .. tapi kat au ko cakap " aku tak layan pun .. blah la sape na gigi jongang camdia " outside je .. inside ? emmm ... entah la ... sudah la .. aku pon tak tau la .. why why why .. i hope u realize la .. i dont want u to be like this ..serious .. i hope u changed .. i pray hard to god ..